| im hurting someone and they dont even know it....=/
so why dont i just stop?.. i know i should...but...its not that easy....
its so hard to say no to sin....we easily fall into it...and sometimes we dont i even know it...you get so caught up into it that you choose to do it constantly just because of its temporary satisfaction...its one of those "i know i shouldnt do this, but i just cant help it, and if i did.....(well, you finish the sentence)..."
sin blocks our view of our purpose in life.....personally, because of my sin, i have lost sight of what God has called me to do... i have forgotten my one sole purpose in life which is to know Christ and make Him known in everything i do for the joy of all people...
that is one tough calling ey?.....to put Christ FIRST....in EVERYTHING i do...to serve Him, to love Him, to be wiling to give up anything and everything so that HE can get all the glory.....not me!
dang thats deep...and the one moment i slip and do something stupid, is the one moment i can easily fall back into sin and do everything opposite of wat im supposed to do.. i lose my focus and my life gets all screwed over..
sad thing is, its not only my life....but the lives of the people who i love the most...my stupidity causes other people to stumble and have a distorted view of God and wat Christianity really is... They see my life and observe its many aspects .and see nothing but sin and pride...
i call myself a "Christian"...but what does that mean? lately, it hasnt meant much of anything...
think about this:
"God is most glorified in us, when we are most satisfied in Him"
lately...i have been finding satisfaction in other things rather than God...instead of me influencing other people.....other people have been influencing me.....and its come to a point where i dont even know what to do anymore..=/
im trying to get myself out of it..but being the weak link that i am, i seem to keep falling back into the same mistake over and over again..
i dont know what ive gotten myself into..
and im having a hard time get out...
Lord, help me....
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hahah....look!..i can spell my name!!..LoL |
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| it is less than 25 minutes before my birthday and i'm getting yelled at.....
oh joy...
time for me to disappear...
good luck tryin to find me....
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| Matthew 7
7:1 “Judge not, that you be not judged. 2 For with the judgment you pronounce you will be judged, and with the measure you use it will be measured to you. 3 Why do you see the speck that is in your brother's eye, but do not notice the log that is in your own eye? 4 Or how can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when there is the log in your own eye? 5 You
hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will
see clearly to take the speck out of your brother's eye."
ya kno...i really enjoy and appreciate God's gift of friendship...He blesses you with those certain people that you get really close to and build strong relationships with...People who share blessings....people who you reveal your sins to...and encourage one another to grow....it's a two-way relationship....(or at least, it should be)
i love being able to help my brothers and sisters...encouraging them when they're down...helping them when they dont know what to do...offering advice...showing them their sin....but what im beginning to realize is the fact that i havent been dealing with my own life...my own problems...my own sin...im so caught up with helping other people that i forget that im not even perfect myself.
sometimes i tell people "hey! stop being angry and submit to your parents" OR "hey...stop wasting your time and read your bible!!"..."stop being lazy!..".......when at the same time i really should be telling myself those things....
so according to Matthew 7....i've been a real hypocrite lately...failing to see that big huge log in my eye....but praise God for scripture... praise God for His spirit that revealed to me my sin... praise God for sending people to tell me off ..(in a loving way..hehe).... praise God for grace...
Lord, help me to strive to be more like your Son....
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